Why Boundaries Feel Like Betrayal When You’ve Been Conditioned to Abandon Yourself
The Guilt Isn’t a Sign You’re Wrong—It’s a Sign You’re Healing
"The guilt you feel for setting boundaries is a sign of how deeply you were trained to abandon yourself."
— Unknown
If saying no makes you feel like a bad person, it’s not because you are one. It’s because you were trained—systematically, emotionally, and relationally—to believe that your worth was tied to your compliance. Your likability was tied to your silence, so your safety depended on keeping the peace, even if it cost you everything.
A lot of people think this is just a personal struggle, but it’s what happens when you grow up—or grow intimate—with someone who conditions you to equate boundaries with betrayal. Someone who punishes your autonomy and rewards your self-abandonment. Someone who only “loves” the version of you that doesn’t need anything in return or have needs at all. This is abuse.
A lot of people notice they are in the cycle, but don’t know what is going on. If you’ve ever been caught in the cycle of abuse, it goes like this:
Tension builds.
Something erupts—rage, punishment, withdrawal.
Then comes the “reconciliation” phase—love bombing, tears, false accountability, promises to change.
Things calm down—for a while.
And then it begins again.
When you start to break the cycle but by disrupting it with a boundary—you will often feel worse before you feel better. Boundaries will feel unfamiliar because they go against everything you were conditioned to believe kept you “safe.”
You might hear:
“You’re so selfish now.”
“You’ve changed.”
“Wow, I guess I don’t matter to you anymore.”
And you might feel:
Guilt.
Shame.
Panic.
The urge to take it back.
Not because the boundary was wrong, but because you’ve been trained to believe that love only comes when you shrink.
When you’ve spent years managing someone else’s moods just to stay safe, your brain wires itself to prioritize their needs over your own. This is how you survive - it’s fawning. You learn to read the room instead of listening to your body, or to stay small so you don’t cause waves. You become hyper-attuned to emotional shifts, tension, or potential threats—because your body believes that love, peace, or safety depends on your ability to stay agreeable.
That’s not a flaw - that’s a trauma response.
And when you begin to heal, your system usually still sees boundaries as danger. Not because they are dangerous, but because they represent change.
Change doesn’t feel safe when you’ve been taught that your safety depends on compliance.
Guilt doesn’t always come from doing the wrong thing. Sometimes it comes from doing the right thing for you—for the first time.
Especially if you've internalized the belief that love is something to earn, rather than something you deserve.
Sometimes we feel guilty because it does not feel normal to you. It’s your nervous system flagging that something feels unsafe, not because it is, but because it’s unfamiliar. You’re not hurting anyone by saying no - you’re retraining your system to believe it’s safe to honor yourself.
This is why so many survivors feel destabilized when recovering. They expect healing to feel peaceful or a relief when often, it often feels like chaos at first. Your body is trying to learn that the discomfort of disappointing others is not a threat to your survival.
People who were comfortable with your silence may push back when you start speaking up. They may call you mean, manipulative, dramatic, or “not who you used to be.”
That’s not proof you’re doing something wrong.
You are interrupting a dynamic that only worked when you kept betraying yourself.
This is why boundary-setting often triggers backlash—not just from others, but from within. You’re grieving who you had to be to survive. You’re shedding old roles, protective masks, people-pleasing scripts, and that process is messy.
Sometimes you need to let it be messy because eventually, the guilt quiets. Your inner voice gets louder and you see through their tantrum.
If you’re stuck in the cycle of abuse, the guilt may feel unbearable. Especially during the reconciliation phase—when things are calm, when they seem like they’re trying, when you want to believe this time will be different.
That’s when setting a boundary feels like ruining the peace.
But that’s not the truth. That’s the trauma speaking. Boundaries will shake the cycle. That’s their job.
And yes—people who benefitted from your silence will call it selfish. They will still expect you to give them all of your emotional labor. They will blame you for holding them accountable and probably call you abusive.
But if you know this will happen, you can let your boundary be the line between who you’ve always been trained to be—and who you’re becoming now.
I hope this resonated with you. If you are looking for more support, I invite you to check out my course on breaking the cycle of abuse. You can learn more here.
"It’s because you were trained—systematically, emotionally, and relationally—to believe that your worth was tied to your compliance."
^Ouch. That hits hard. Being praised for following the rules never felt like a bad thing growing up. How unintentionally insidious.
My ex used to say ‘wow, you really are just all about you’ whenever I tried to put a boundary in place. My desire to correct this perspective won so many times over the years, and I let the boundary go. Until one day, I didn’t. Now, years after we divorced, he still pulls this card out occasionally (we have kids together). I am expert level at boundary setting now. They saved me.